Suffering

Dearest Nicholas,
Of late, mommy and daddy has been spending a lot more time with you in CICU and HD. The word "suffering" has been flashing across mommy's mind these days, especially when I see how much you are suffering during suctioning and the pain of having the trac-key stuck in your throat. It pains mommy so much whenever I see tears rolling down your eyes during suctioning and whenever you gag when we suction your trac-key.

I searched on the internet to get a deeper understanding on suffering and this is what I found:
http://bible.org/seriespage/doctrine-suffering
http://www.viewonbuddhism.org/4_noble_truths.html

Darling Nicholas, at this moment, I wish that if God wants to teach mommy something, it is not through your suffering ....